thats us

 we took these pictures ourselves in our backyard. first Christmas pictures :)

 Daddy and the boys! they are most definitly youngs

 no greater love than the love I feel for our boys

 K man ....he looks so sweet and like hes thinking what can I do next

Guss here is normally my photogenic one he loves the camera but he wasnt too into it this time oh well hes still my cutie

Kreiger came home yesterday

Our little man Kreiger Wayne came home yesterday from the hospital hospital :-) he's doing good! Moms a little sleep deprived. He's st is 4.11lbs. We follow up with peds doctor Tue. Here are a few pics of him in his car seat and on the way home.

3 weeks old

 Here is Kreiger on Top and Benjamin on Botton so you can compare the two

 Benjamin 3 weeks old he now weighs 4.3lbs :)

Kreiger 3 weeks old he now weighs 3.13lbs :)

First time holding the boys together

The love and happiness I feel is so amazing!!! I love these boys more than I can put into words. Just so blessed!!!

Our boys

Kreiger does not have oxygen Benjamin does

Benjamin PDA

Today the boys are 5 days old, it seems so surreal that Jeremy and I are finaly parents and especialy to two amazing little boys. This morning we found out that Benjamin has a heart murmer. On futhure investigation the NICU doctor was able to determine that he has a PDA (patent Ductus Arteriousus) it is a duct that is supposed to close at birth between the Aorta and the Pulmonary Vein. This is not closed and it open. It is causing their to be too much blood in the lungs, the heart is working to hard, and everything else is not getting the needed oxygen and blood. Today benjamin received his first dose of the medication they are giving him to try to close this Duct. He will receive 3 doses each 12 hours apart. He also received a blood transfusion this afternoon. Tomorrow morning he will have another ECHO done and a Chest xray. If the area seems bigger or he starts to present as being in more distress they will send him to Little Rock to Childrens for open chest surgery. The medication is the first step though. He can receive up to two sets of this medication however it is very hard on the Kidneys so they are having to watch his urine output very closely. If this drops he will also have to be sent to Childrens.

As of right now, he has received the first dose and the transfusion. You can tell he doesnt feel good and that break mine and his daddys hearts. He will receive his 2nd dose at 0115. I will know more by tomorrow afternoon and will update then. They have stopped his feedings for the time being so we continue to pray that his PICC line holds out bc this is how he is receiving all of his nutrition through TPN. His lungs are doing well but working a little hard due to the PDA.

Kreiger, well he is just hanging out doing well. He is tolerating his feedings well and his lungs are super strong. The NICU doctors have def been impressed.

Birth Day

Our twin Boys were Born June 26, 2012, 10 weeks premature. Kreiger and Benjamin are such huge blessings to us. We never even imagined how much we would love them. Kreiger is doing very well and Benjamin has developed some issues. I will do my best to keep this site up to date on the Boys and their current treatment. Thank you to everyone who has prayed for Jeremy and I for years as we tried to expand our family and now who is praying for our boys.

Can't sleep

Totally can't sleep, I can't get my brain to slow down and unwind. I keep thinking of all the things I should know to be a mom and I feel so inadequate. I just want to be the best wife and mother I can be. I want to be that Proverbs 31 women.

21 weeks

Well we are now 21 weeks 2 days. These are pictures of the stroller my awesome mom bought for us. Also the two canvas's that I've drawn and am painting for the boys room. The K is for Kreiger the B for Benjamin. Nothing to exciting happening. I had a bad nose bleed this morning and bp was a little elevated. I've become an over worrier me being at.home gives me way to much time to think about everything ten thousand different ways. Jeremy and I are both very blessed to have an awesome support system. Its amazing to know we will be meeting out boys within 16 weeks. My ob has set the goal of 37 weeks so that sets my date as Aug 8th. I do believe if I make it that far they may have to roll me to the hosp :-)

18 weeks prego

Well I haven't updated in awhile not really sure why its not like I dont have the time since Im not working but life is so different right now. I am feeling the babies move and I can't wait until Jeremy gets to feel them move I now that is going to be so special. I still cannot believe that God has blessed Jeremy and I with twin BOYS!!! Its so funny when we get to see them on the Ultrasound and hear their heartbeats Im reminded that they are two separate babies with different personalities. Kreiger Baby A is very laid back heart  rate normally low 150s and he moves but not near as much as Baby B Benjamin Ive decided to call him my bouncing Benjamin bc he is so active it took us longer to find out that hes a little boy bc hes so active moving and kicking his brothers sac all the time his heartbeat is normally mid 160s. They assure me that anything between 120s-180s is normal and that my little boys are two separate babies and to not compare them that they both are fine even though it hard since they seem so different already. Of course Im so excited about their names.
Kreieger is my papaws last name and I have told him as long as I can remember thaat i would carry on his last name. We knew that the first boy we had would have his name so when we found out first that Baby A was a boy there it was our little Kreiger. My papaw was a very calm laid back person who never really got in a hurry to do anything so now that we are getting to learn a little more about our boys ever day I def think the name is Perfect. Baby B is Benjamin after Jeremys best friend who passes away 3 years ago this april in a motor cycle accident he meant so much to jeremy and was like a brother to him and welcomed me into their group and family like I had always belonged. Ben was a dare devil and very into music like jeremy so Baby B is def living up to his name. Both Boys are named after people that Jeremy and I love/loved so very much. They were smart full of life and both Loved the Lord very much I can only pray that our boys will grow to love their names and be honored to these names.

Monday I had to go to the hospital and be monitored for contrations and recieved IV fluids due to dehydration. I was pretty scared Sat when I thought that I might actually be having contractions at 17 weeks. However my uterus is already measuring 28 weeks so my OB assures me that yes its early but my body is just trying to get ready. Im now on strict bedrest.......oh fun fun fun. This is so very hard for m Im such a take charge person and as many people who (Love me) say Im a little bossy. So now being at home on bedrest I am in control of nothing and I try to boss Jeremy but he just laughs :)

Jeremy has been working on the nursery and I am so in love with the room. I cant wait till its finished and we can start putting the cribs together and in place. Also, the bedding is so cute. I realize that as we are going through all of this this might be our only chance to experience this but I do not dwell on this I just continue to be thankful and enjoy every things about it. Even the peeing every hour and uncomfortableness. I wouldnt change it for the world. I feel so blessed to be able to be carrying our two little boys and I know Jeremy is going to be an amazing father and I pray that I am a good mom. Its one of the only things I have ever wanted and hopefully not until after July I will be able to hold my little boys in my arms and feel their heart beats, and be able to look at them and know they are a gift from God and see Jeremys details as well as my own. What a blessed day that will be.

Baby bedding

Ordered our baby bedding today. I love it its so different and I think really cute for our twin boy

Looks like Team BLUE!!!!

So today we went to the OB for our 15 week check up.........and it looks like we are having twin BOYS!!!! Which I am super excited I would have been either way but I def wanted one boy to carry on my papaws name and it looks like I am going to have two boys!!! Baby A was totally laid back  and we could tell right off. Baby B however is very active and it was hard to tell for sure but she thinks it is a boy as well. We go back on the 19th to start measuring my cervical length and she thinks they will try and tell agian. So I am off until the Baby comes...........High Risk preg with bleeding during first trimester. Anyways nothing to exciting going on right now just having to take it easy. Feeling overwhelmingly blessed :)

Bed Rest

So I am on bed rest again. I am 12 weeks 5 days, and was placed on bed rest Fri when I woke up to bleeding heavily. A trip to the ER and seeing that the Babies were still ok on the Ultrasound at that time. Things are scary right now. We want more than anything for these babies to be ok and be able to stay in the womb until they can survive safely outside the womb. THis is my second time already to be on bed rest. Jeremy made the comment that why would be think that being pregnant would be easy for us considering the fact that it was so hard for us to get pregnant. I thought this might have been something I would be good at. As my mom says Im not normal so why would I think that my pregnancy would be normal....I dont know I guess wishful thinking. The thought of going on bed rest for good is scary to me bc I really need to work and I also like working however I know I have to do what is best for my babies. Babies are Due in Aug however I will be surprised if I deliver in Aug Im thinking July even if its the end of July. I cont to pray that God would protect my little babies as well as me. Being a nurse sometimes doesnt help bc I think I am too aware of whats going on. And google is not always the best thing. Anyways for now your prayers would be greatly appreciated for the babies, Jeremy, and myself. Speaking of Jeremy he is so amazing. There is no way I could do this without him. I am so truly blessed and I know that he will be an amazing father.

Songs for babies

I bought this thurs for our little miracles. I figure I want to introduce them to the Word of the Lord as soon as possible. I'm sure in a year ill be so tired of this cd but for now I'm very happy about their first cd :-)

Last tulsa visit

Tomorrow will be my last Tulsa visit for this pregnancy. Its very bitter sweet. Dr. Prough has been so great with me and I've seen him every week for the past 5 weeks. Today I went for my first prenatal visit and the nurse tells me that ill see TVs doc every 4 weeks......WHAT!!!! brakes on please how can I go from weekly to monthly.... my heart does not like this idea, but I guess it is what it is. So tonight I made my moms famous brownies, of course mine won't taste as good but hopefully they will at least be eatable (sp ) to take to Tulsa tomorrow. I can't believe that I'm already done this this phase and I'm moving on till the next. My heart feels so thankful, full, &blessed buy I can't help but still miss my papaw daily. His absence from my life has left a void. Anyways before I get too hormonal ill end this post on being thankful for being 10 weeks.

Prenatal appt with nurse

I'm patiently waiting to see the nurse for my appt. I get a call yesterday from them that says my appt is at 805 now I get here and they tell me its not till 820 so we shall see.......

Life is Changing

Several things have happened lately and are going to happen in the upcoming week.

• First, our Twins are growing right on schedule and looking beautiful as always!!! Their heartbeats are so strong and this week their hearts have divided into the 4 chambers.
• Last Sunday we had a bleeding scare. I seriously dont think I have been that scared in a very long time. The thought of loosing one or both of my babies is just unimagionalable. So I was on bedrest Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday.
• This week will be my last week to go to Tulsa which is a little bitter sweet. I have been with them for over a year now gone through several surgeries, a miscarriage, lot of hormones, and now conception of our twins. They have been so supportive of Jeremy and I and I just feel very safe with them, however all things must come to an end so on Thursday that will be the last time for us to go to Tulsa with this pregnancy.
• Wednesday I will be going to my first prenatal visit with my OB  office. I will not actually see my OB until the following monday. This meeting is a time to go over my care and the lovely payment plan.
• On the note of my OB I love her and her nurse they are very kind loving people and I know they will take care of my little angels growing inside of me.
• Also, this week will be my last week of IM progesterone shots and estrogen pacthes!!!! I am really excited about this as I know my bottom is too ;)

I am so thankful to be pregnant and esp expecting twins. In the same sence though it is a little scary. I want to be able to carry my babies as long as I can so they can grow big and strong and be able to function well once they are born. I also need to try to work as long as I can before I have to go on bedrest. Of course with Twins the likelyhood of going on bedrest early is high. Twin pregnancys are considered high risk and of course if you know me, Im weird and not that normal so if its gonna happen it prob will happen to me. Until next time I hope if you reading this you know the Lord as your Savior if you dont please let me know and I will help you learn about him :) God Bless!!!

8w5d

Here are the twins we had a.bleeding scare but babies are great and we are sooo thankful!!!

Making room for babies

Since we sold our dining room table we decided to close off the area for the babies to have a play area. I'm going to have the ABCs on the wall.
Also its a dog free area since Choco sheds so bad.

Twins at 8 weeks

Our babies are growing and changing every day. So blessed!!!

7 weeks

I was able to hear my twin babies heartbeats yesterday. It was the most amazing sound Ive every heard. I just cried. Jeremy wasnt able to go but he will be able to be there next wednesday for our 8week ultrasound.

Some bedding I like

I like this one for a boy

                                                                      For a Girl

           I like this because we have chosen the name of Lillie if its a girl so I like the idea of the frogs :)



TWINS!!!!!!!

Two heartbeats beating great!!! Baby A is in front of Baby B. Baby A measured 6w1d and 129hr and Baby B measured 6w2d and 120hr. We go back on the 16th to see out little babies growing. I cannot even put into words how blessed I feel and also how overwhelmed. Its hard to go from trying so hard to get pregnant to actually being pregnant. Im just so thankful!!! Cant wait to see my little babies again :)

Tomorrow

I cannot believe that tomorrow we will get to see our baby/babies...its the most amazing scary thing. I am so excited and feel so blessed.
Jeremy is sick with a viral infection so I hope he gets feeling better soon and that I dont get it lol.
WIll update tomorrow when I know something :)

Finally Pregnant!!!!

Yes it is true we are finally pregnant and so thankful for this blessing. We had our transfer with 2 of our frozen embryos Dec 12th, I was on bed rest for 3 days, then I tested on Sunday the 18th after church and got a positive. I preceeded to test 4 more times resulting in all positives. On Dec 22nd, my first beta was 385 yay!!!!! My second Beta was on December 29th, it was 4920!!!! So we are so excited. I go this Thursday Jan 5th, as long as state isnt in my building, for my Ultrasound. It cannot believe we are finally here. Its so unbelievable.
Im so blessed to have people that have truly helped me through this I would not have been able to make it if it wasnt for "L" and "H" they will alwys be sisters in my heart.
So symptoms: cramping in the beginning, tired tired and more tired lol, indigestion, sore boobs that seriously feel like they could fall off at times, nausea more in the evenings than in the morning, I had a headache on and off but nothing too horrible. Honestly I am just so thankful to be pregnant I will take anything bc this journey had been so hard and long to get here its all worth it. My jeans already feel tight, which seems totally weird. I can't wait to see if it is twins or not. I truly hope I have a little boy so I can carry on my papaws name which is "Kreiger" which in German means Warrior, which totally describes the type of person he was. I miss him so very much and I cant help but believe he planned something in my blessing.
Jeremy is excited of course men act differently but he is excited and keep telling people. Both of our families are excited, of course a little nervous about the thought of having TWINS!!!!
Anyways, until thursday, hopefully this will be a great week for everyone and a great year!!!!!

1 Samuel 1:27 For I prayed for this child and God granted me my petition.