Bed Rest

So I am on bed rest again. I am 12 weeks 5 days, and was placed on bed rest Fri when I woke up to bleeding heavily. A trip to the ER and seeing that the Babies were still ok on the Ultrasound at that time. Things are scary right now. We want more than anything for these babies to be ok and be able to stay in the womb until they can survive safely outside the womb. THis is my second time already to be on bed rest. Jeremy made the comment that why would be think that being pregnant would be easy for us considering the fact that it was so hard for us to get pregnant. I thought this might have been something I would be good at. As my mom says Im not normal so why would I think that my pregnancy would be normal....I dont know I guess wishful thinking. The thought of going on bed rest for good is scary to me bc I really need to work and I also like working however I know I have to do what is best for my babies. Babies are Due in Aug however I will be surprised if I deliver in Aug Im thinking July even if its the end of July. I cont to pray that God would protect my little babies as well as me. Being a nurse sometimes doesnt help bc I think I am too aware of whats going on. And google is not always the best thing. Anyways for now your prayers would be greatly appreciated for the babies, Jeremy, and myself. Speaking of Jeremy he is so amazing. There is no way I could do this without him. I am so truly blessed and I know that he will be an amazing father.