Can't sleep

Totally can't sleep, I can't get my brain to slow down and unwind. I keep thinking of all the things I should know to be a mom and I feel so inadequate. I just want to be the best wife and mother I can be. I want to be that Proverbs 31 women.

21 weeks

Well we are now 21 weeks 2 days. These are pictures of the stroller my awesome mom bought for us. Also the two canvas's that I've drawn and am painting for the boys room. The K is for Kreiger the B for Benjamin. Nothing to exciting happening. I had a bad nose bleed this morning and bp was a little elevated. I've become an over worrier me being at.home gives me way to much time to think about everything ten thousand different ways. Jeremy and I are both very blessed to have an awesome support system. Its amazing to know we will be meeting out boys within 16 weeks. My ob has set the goal of 37 weeks so that sets my date as Aug 8th. I do believe if I make it that far they may have to roll me to the hosp :-)

18 weeks prego

Well I haven't updated in awhile not really sure why its not like I dont have the time since Im not working but life is so different right now. I am feeling the babies move and I can't wait until Jeremy gets to feel them move I now that is going to be so special. I still cannot believe that God has blessed Jeremy and I with twin BOYS!!! Its so funny when we get to see them on the Ultrasound and hear their heartbeats Im reminded that they are two separate babies with different personalities. Kreiger Baby A is very laid back heart  rate normally low 150s and he moves but not near as much as Baby B Benjamin Ive decided to call him my bouncing Benjamin bc he is so active it took us longer to find out that hes a little boy bc hes so active moving and kicking his brothers sac all the time his heartbeat is normally mid 160s. They assure me that anything between 120s-180s is normal and that my little boys are two separate babies and to not compare them that they both are fine even though it hard since they seem so different already. Of course Im so excited about their names.
Kreieger is my papaws last name and I have told him as long as I can remember thaat i would carry on his last name. We knew that the first boy we had would have his name so when we found out first that Baby A was a boy there it was our little Kreiger. My papaw was a very calm laid back person who never really got in a hurry to do anything so now that we are getting to learn a little more about our boys ever day I def think the name is Perfect. Baby B is Benjamin after Jeremys best friend who passes away 3 years ago this april in a motor cycle accident he meant so much to jeremy and was like a brother to him and welcomed me into their group and family like I had always belonged. Ben was a dare devil and very into music like jeremy so Baby B is def living up to his name. Both Boys are named after people that Jeremy and I love/loved so very much. They were smart full of life and both Loved the Lord very much I can only pray that our boys will grow to love their names and be honored to these names.

Monday I had to go to the hospital and be monitored for contrations and recieved IV fluids due to dehydration. I was pretty scared Sat when I thought that I might actually be having contractions at 17 weeks. However my uterus is already measuring 28 weeks so my OB assures me that yes its early but my body is just trying to get ready. Im now on strict bedrest.......oh fun fun fun. This is so very hard for m Im such a take charge person and as many people who (Love me) say Im a little bossy. So now being at home on bedrest I am in control of nothing and I try to boss Jeremy but he just laughs :)

Jeremy has been working on the nursery and I am so in love with the room. I cant wait till its finished and we can start putting the cribs together and in place. Also, the bedding is so cute. I realize that as we are going through all of this this might be our only chance to experience this but I do not dwell on this I just continue to be thankful and enjoy every things about it. Even the peeing every hour and uncomfortableness. I wouldnt change it for the world. I feel so blessed to be able to be carrying our two little boys and I know Jeremy is going to be an amazing father and I pray that I am a good mom. Its one of the only things I have ever wanted and hopefully not until after July I will be able to hold my little boys in my arms and feel their heart beats, and be able to look at them and know they are a gift from God and see Jeremys details as well as my own. What a blessed day that will be.

Baby bedding

Ordered our baby bedding today. I love it its so different and I think really cute for our twin boy

Looks like Team BLUE!!!!

So today we went to the OB for our 15 week check up.........and it looks like we are having twin BOYS!!!! Which I am super excited I would have been either way but I def wanted one boy to carry on my papaws name and it looks like I am going to have two boys!!! Baby A was totally laid back  and we could tell right off. Baby B however is very active and it was hard to tell for sure but she thinks it is a boy as well. We go back on the 19th to start measuring my cervical length and she thinks they will try and tell agian. So I am off until the Baby comes...........High Risk preg with bleeding during first trimester. Anyways nothing to exciting going on right now just having to take it easy. Feeling overwhelmingly blessed :)

Bed Rest

So I am on bed rest again. I am 12 weeks 5 days, and was placed on bed rest Fri when I woke up to bleeding heavily. A trip to the ER and seeing that the Babies were still ok on the Ultrasound at that time. Things are scary right now. We want more than anything for these babies to be ok and be able to stay in the womb until they can survive safely outside the womb. THis is my second time already to be on bed rest. Jeremy made the comment that why would be think that being pregnant would be easy for us considering the fact that it was so hard for us to get pregnant. I thought this might have been something I would be good at. As my mom says Im not normal so why would I think that my pregnancy would be normal....I dont know I guess wishful thinking. The thought of going on bed rest for good is scary to me bc I really need to work and I also like working however I know I have to do what is best for my babies. Babies are Due in Aug however I will be surprised if I deliver in Aug Im thinking July even if its the end of July. I cont to pray that God would protect my little babies as well as me. Being a nurse sometimes doesnt help bc I think I am too aware of whats going on. And google is not always the best thing. Anyways for now your prayers would be greatly appreciated for the babies, Jeremy, and myself. Speaking of Jeremy he is so amazing. There is no way I could do this without him. I am so truly blessed and I know that he will be an amazing father.

Songs for babies

I bought this thurs for our little miracles. I figure I want to introduce them to the Word of the Lord as soon as possible. I'm sure in a year ill be so tired of this cd but for now I'm very happy about their first cd :-)