Random

Today Jeremy came home and I was so glad to see him. He had gotten me a card and I had gotten him a card....crazy guess we think a like. I want so bad to be a shining light for the Lord in everything that I say and do. I want to be discipled and I want to disciple. Not really sure where to start but I think prayer is a good place. I am really looking forward to thanksgiving and being able to see my family. I miss them and I haven't seen any of them besides my papaw since the summer. For Christmas we are going to Jeremy's families. I know its my family too but sometimes it just seems like to different families. I always dreamed and hoped that we would be able to come together as one and maybe one day we will be able to. For so long time I have had such a desire to have children but now I realize that apparently that it is not my time to have children, that I shouldn't stop living my life and I shouldn't be mad at God for not allowing me to have children now. I know that the Lord in his perfect timing will allow me to be a mother if it is in his plan and if not I pray that he will give me the grace to deal with that. My blogs are so random I start talking about one thing and then get off on something else if anyone reads these I'm sorry for the randomness.

Friendship and a new day

Yesterday I emailed a lady that I admire in a lot of ways to ask her some questions. As I should have figured she said the exact things that I knew she would. Sometimes I think it is just having someone say them back to you. I feel like in my short life I have had to deal with a lot of things that other people well into their 80s have never delt with. But I have learned through all of this that the Lord has allowed me to go through these things to be able to help other people, to be able to reach other people and isn't that our goal while here on earth to reach others with the Gospel?! I would like to be able to get close with some other pastors wives and learn from them. As I enter into a new week and a brand new day my prayer is that I would be a true reflection of the Lord and that in everything I say and do he would receive the honor.

Blessings

Jeremy had his surgery today and everything went well. He is at home now healing. We will not know for sure or not but the surgen felt like it didn't look like the polyp was cancerous so that is truly a blessing. I would like to think that even if it had been cancer that I would still praise the Lord. It seems like everything I do lately I think of Jill I think in everything she gave Glory to the Father and I truly have a desire to be that way. The Lord has blessed me and my family in more ways then I will ever be able to say. As my moms surgery is approaching I pray that no matter what happens I will still praise the Lord.

As Jeremy and I have been here a little over a year in Gary I am really starting to feel at home. Thank you to all of the ppl that came to the hospital today to be with Jeremy and I. The fellowship with brothers and sisters in Christ is a true blessing.

Jill

This weekend has been trying in many ways. The things that I thought were such a big deal seemed to change in many ways when I heard about the accident Saturday. I did not know Jill as well as so many people but she was someone that touched my heart in many ways and helped me to find the direction the Lord wanted me to go. I am in nursing school and I pray that I can be half of the nurse she was. I wish I could have been closer to her and learned more from her. As I am a preacher's wife I wish I could have talked to her and learned from her how to deal with things better as a wife. When I was in the Phillipines with Jill and Scott I learned that the Lord had layed a burden on my heart helping others. I was so afraid to cross this river over there and I started to cry she started to sing "I've got a river of life flowing out of me" I sang the song and was able to cross the river. She was a true reflection of the Lord. I can only pray that I will be half of the woman she was. My heart breaks for Scott and Bryce. Trusting in the Lord is what we still have to do even in this very trying time.