for now....

Well its been snowing since yesterday afternoon. Janeas here and we have had a good time so far. Man I feel like I could just sleep all the time I'm always so tired :/. Maybe this too will get better when/if they are able to get my hormones leveled out. This week we find out when Jeremy is going to have the ultrasound and his blood work. We will have to wait till we receive the results back from these test before we are able to move forward. I think even if all we get accomplished this year is to have a lot of test done and maybe some procedures then at least when we are able to go to AF&G we will already know what's wrong. Thus far we know that my hormone levels are extremely low and that sperms count and mobility is low as well. Hopefully we will find out soon more as to why both of us have issues and what they are stemming from. It kinda scares me bc I wonder at times if we are just meant to not have children, well we are looking at buying a house and wow the emotions and feelings that go along with that are very interesting. I feel so excited but nervous in the same breath. At times I feel like I could vomit just about getting in something that cost so much. Its such a big deal. This house is very interesting I like the charm it has. We are supposed to get a surveyor out here this week to see if there are any problems with the home. I just feel stupid buying this home just for me and Jeremy. It seems like maybe we shouldn't buy something for a family when we don't have one yet. But then again I think that if we end up adopting that at least we will have a home already. We will just have to see so many major decisions to make. I just pray the Lord leads us in the right direction to make the decisions that are the ones that will bring him honor and glory. For now we just wait.