TWINS!!!!!!!

Two heartbeats beating great!!! Baby A is in front of Baby B. Baby A measured 6w1d and 129hr and Baby B measured 6w2d and 120hr. We go back on the 16th to see out little babies growing. I cannot even put into words how blessed I feel and also how overwhelmed. Its hard to go from trying so hard to get pregnant to actually being pregnant. Im just so thankful!!! Cant wait to see my little babies again :)

Tomorrow

I cannot believe that tomorrow we will get to see our baby/babies...its the most amazing scary thing. I am so excited and feel so blessed.
Jeremy is sick with a viral infection so I hope he gets feeling better soon and that I dont get it lol.
WIll update tomorrow when I know something :)

Finally Pregnant!!!!

Yes it is true we are finally pregnant and so thankful for this blessing. We had our transfer with 2 of our frozen embryos Dec 12th, I was on bed rest for 3 days, then I tested on Sunday the 18th after church and got a positive. I preceeded to test 4 more times resulting in all positives. On Dec 22nd, my first beta was 385 yay!!!!! My second Beta was on December 29th, it was 4920!!!! So we are so excited. I go this Thursday Jan 5th, as long as state isnt in my building, for my Ultrasound. It cannot believe we are finally here. Its so unbelievable.
Im so blessed to have people that have truly helped me through this I would not have been able to make it if it wasnt for "L" and "H" they will alwys be sisters in my heart.
So symptoms: cramping in the beginning, tired tired and more tired lol, indigestion, sore boobs that seriously feel like they could fall off at times, nausea more in the evenings than in the morning, I had a headache on and off but nothing too horrible. Honestly I am just so thankful to be pregnant I will take anything bc this journey had been so hard and long to get here its all worth it. My jeans already feel tight, which seems totally weird. I can't wait to see if it is twins or not. I truly hope I have a little boy so I can carry on my papaws name which is "Kreiger" which in German means Warrior, which totally describes the type of person he was. I miss him so very much and I cant help but believe he planned something in my blessing.
Jeremy is excited of course men act differently but he is excited and keep telling people. Both of our families are excited, of course a little nervous about the thought of having TWINS!!!!
Anyways, until thursday, hopefully this will be a great week for everyone and a great year!!!!!

1 Samuel 1:27 For I prayed for this child and God granted me my petition.

November

Pancreatic Cancer Awareness Month

This month is pancreatic cancer awareness month. As I looked up info on this I realized that it is known as the lethal cancer because the survival rate is so low bc normally not found until it is far progressed. This is def the case with my papaw even if he had not been on dialysis he would not have been able to fight this bc it was too far progressed. This has been hard on me and my whole family. I feel so empty at times and wonder how the world continues to go on when I feel like my life has just stopped. My papaw was not just my papaw but my dad and my friend and I will forever miss him.

This year in general has been hard. Multiply surgeries, house flooding, money issues, miscarriaged, and lost my papaw. I know there are so many people that worse things have happened but it doesnt make it any easier. The pain is still so real. My mamaw also fell yesterday, Im so thankful that she was ok. A few brusises and some discomfort but thankfully nothing is broken.

It has been very hard being so far away from my family. I talk mamaw at least once a day and my mom at least every couple. I wish I could just move them up here with me. I do realize that we all do have our lives and that is def something my papaw would want is for us to cont to LIVE.

Jeremy excepted a pastorit of a church close to us and I am very excited about the church and what God has in store for us. Looking forward to a new year.

Kristie

Papaw

These last few days have kinda all been a blare and have ran together. I have been staying with my papaw in the hospital since he was admitted last friday. If you are reading my blog you probable know how special my papaw is to me. He is like my dad, the man I have always looked up to, the strongest person I know. For the past several years my papaw has not been in good health, now at the age of only 62 he is faced with in a situation that I am not sure if he will pull out of.

Since I started working in Long-Term I views on things have changed in many ways. I realize now that my papaws quality of life not what it should be or once was. I realize the pain that he indures each and every day. I realize that he has held no so long for myself and my family. I realize that 62 is in no way shape or form OLD. I realize that life is too short and we need to make the most of every moment we have with the ones that we hold dear.

One of the greatest things I think about my papaw is that there is no blood relation. I would give my life for my papaw, I would take all this pain away from him if he would allow me to. I love him more than I have ever loved anyone, well maybe not Jeremy but in a different way. My papaw is my Weather Man :) he means so much to me. I say that this is so great bc when I think about Jeremy and I adopting a child it gives me the comfort and peace of knowing that that child can love us as much as I love him. So many things run deeper than blood. Not that I don't love my blood family but my papaw and I have always had a really tight bond.

I remember asking him once if he wished my mom had had a girl, he laughed and said "no, it wouldn't have been as much fun." My papaw always knows how to make me smile, how to help me look at the big picture. He has taught me so many things. If I am blessed to spend just one more day with my papaw I pray that I use that time to just enjoy being in his presents.

Its hard to know when God is getting ready to take someone help. All I know is that whether that is tonight or 2 years down the road I want to lead a legacy like my papaw. He loves the Lord and if you know him you not only know my earthly father but you have met my heavenly father as well. When the Bible says to live in the world but not be of the world that is my papaw. He has lived his life just like all of us but the difference is that he has lived each day letting Jesus light shine through him. I love you papaw and I am so truly thankful to be your grand-daughter :)