These last few days have kinda all been a blare and have ran together. I have been staying with my papaw in the hospital since he was admitted last friday. If you are reading my blog you probable know how special my papaw is to me. He is like my dad, the man I have always looked up to, the strongest person I know. For the past several years my papaw has not been in good health, now at the age of only 62 he is faced with in a situation that I am not sure if he will pull out of.
Since I started working in Long-Term I views on things have changed in many ways. I realize now that my papaws quality of life not what it should be or once was. I realize the pain that he indures each and every day. I realize that he has held no so long for myself and my family. I realize that 62 is in no way shape or form OLD. I realize that life is too short and we need to make the most of every moment we have with the ones that we hold dear.
One of the greatest things I think about my papaw is that there is no blood relation. I would give my life for my papaw, I would take all this pain away from him if he would allow me to. I love him more than I have ever loved anyone, well maybe not Jeremy but in a different way. My papaw is my Weather Man :) he means so much to me. I say that this is so great bc when I think about Jeremy and I adopting a child it gives me the comfort and peace of knowing that that child can love us as much as I love him. So many things run deeper than blood. Not that I don't love my blood family but my papaw and I have always had a really tight bond.
I remember asking him once if he wished my mom had had a girl, he laughed and said "no, it wouldn't have been as much fun." My papaw always knows how to make me smile, how to help me look at the big picture. He has taught me so many things. If I am blessed to spend just one more day with my papaw I pray that I use that time to just enjoy being in his presents.
Its hard to know when God is getting ready to take someone help. All I know is that whether that is tonight or 2 years down the road I want to lead a legacy like my papaw. He loves the Lord and if you know him you not only know my earthly father but you have met my heavenly father as well. When the Bible says to live in the world but not be of the world that is my papaw. He has lived his life just like all of us but the difference is that he has lived each day letting Jesus light shine through him. I love you papaw and I am so truly thankful to be your grand-daughter :)
